Monthly Archives: March 2013

what is making me happy this week

So this was my last week of movement elective at one of the community hospitals–one of the things making me happy is people’s kindness and generosity.

I came out of a patient’s room yesterday to find a whole food’s chocolate mousse cake that said “best wishes Dr. Stone!” and it so warmed my heart. It was from the nursing staff in the clinic! And i’m only a resident there.

Another would be bright nail polish. I painted my nails in honor of Easter last evening a lovely shade of electric pink (even got a compliment on them in Trader Joes’ Today). Zoya’s Ali. ( http://www.zoya.com ) love love love them.

Store Reward Programs would be another. I happen to have a Banana republic card that I always pay back immediately, but that when I use it to buy work clothes, I always manage to get 30-40% off a purchase and eventually earn a $10 credit off. which is pretty awesome. 

Last, but most definitely not least is Easter. Christmas of course gets a lot of attention, but the older I have gotten, the more I appreciate Easter. A holiday celebrating the sacrifice of God and the victory over death and sickness and evil. Doesn’t get much better than that. 

Hopefully my pecan salted caramel tart is a success tomorrow. Fingers crossed that the caramel sets, there aren’t too many pecans (is that possible?) and that the crust isn’t doughy….i’m walking away from staring at it now.

i shall already say–

CHRIST THE LORD IS RISEN INDEED! HALLELUJAH!

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Things that make me HAPPY

So my Christmas gift to myself this past year was an ipad mini named Herbert.

He is wonderful in so many ways–one of which is me getting into podcasts.

Now in addition to my spotify playlists when I bake or travel, I have officially become an old woman by listening to various NPR broadcasts. One of them, “Pop Culture Happy Hour” has a bit about what is making the roundtable of hosts happy. In attempt to maintain more posting on here, I’m going to try to do the same.

1. The above- podcasts. my favorites thus far: This American Life, Pop Culture Happy Hour, Fresh Air, Selected Shorts (actors/actresses read well-known short stories), and The Joy the Baker Podcast. I’m open to other recs.

2. Duolingo- Thank you boy #3 for this link. courtesy of this, I am practicing my Spanish daily! onward and upward to fluency.  did I mention it’s free, and you can also learn french, german ,or italian.

3. the new Justin Timberlake album. who knew a pop album about being IN LOVE would be so enjoyable. and not like alicia keys who is a crook and thinks she’s cheated the cosmos by stealing someone else’s husband. an actual reasonable union. and so Justin and Jessica. you have to stay together.

4. NCIS marathon this weekend. more proof that i’m an old woman.

5. Bates Motel on A&E. Who can resist the adorable nature of Freddie Highmore?

6. citrus fruit. I have grapefruit and mineolas in the fridge. AND mint. a citrus salad is in the works.

7. and finally, since 7 is a nice whole number. Crabbie’s Ginger Beer. Discovered this Saturday at Nomad Pizza here in town when my co-workers and I had to meet up to make a treatment algorithm. Definitely made it more enjoyable. and they are sneaky. literally boozy ginger ale.

happy Holy week folks.

till we meet again.

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what’s a girl to do

Okay my adoring public.
hahaha. that’s funny.

i’m eating red wine chocolate cake at lunch currently. and listening to the new JT album. it’s going to be on repeat for a while. I can feel it.

so onto boys.

As a background, I am THE world’s best at making guy friends. particularly with men that women want to date. it’s a thing. This has been a fact since Junior High.

Caleb- hands down the best friend a girl could ask for when she is 13, and the desire of many an adolescent white girl at my school. 

Trent, Jamie W., Josh- all the church camp heart throbs

Then there was the “Britt Society” in High School- a group of 3 boys who played soccer/tennis and use to sing “Hail Brittania” when I walked into class. 

And don’t even get me started with college and then medical school.

THE POINT IS THAT THESE GUYS NEVER MADE ANY MOVES ON ME. that were clearly, “Britt I want to date you.”

Yes, they might’ve faked a proposal and marriage on facebook for 2 years, effectively cockblocking themselves.
They quite possibly took me to weddings, or drove my car home for the 4th of July and met my parents.
They could have driven from out of town to take me to a concert for my 23rd birthday and then drive back home that night because they had to work the next day.
Or paid for EVERY thing we ever did together. 
Heck, they even asked me to my own Med School Prom.

But no one ever said anything explicitly that made it as clear as day that they liked me. 
Maybe I’m dumb.

And so now, in my last year of my 20s, this has persisted. quick recap to presently:
1. Britt, I’ll ask you out and go on 3 dates with you and call you when I’m driving home to see my family, and then I’ll tell you over the phone, that in fact, I think you are rad. and we should be friends.

2. Britt, you are so awesome. so cool! wanna go to concerts and talk about music and God? oh, and want to come to my family’s thanksgiving dinner because that is normal even though I would never be interested in anything more than friendship?

AND NOW:
3. Hey, I’m your medical student. I’ll hang out with you the entire rotation. I’ll say we should hang out after the rotation. I’ll be gone for a year, but I’ll keep in touch. Why don’t we have skype dates! I’m back in town, why don’t we grab dinner, go to a garden…let’s talk about what are plans are for the future. 
I won’t make a ton of effort to initiate contact, but will always be available whenever you contact me. I’ll be more than happy to be 100% interested 97% of the time. 

WHAT IN THE WORLD?!

As I prepare to move to NYC, and of course, because God loves me, so is #3. what do I do? Do I discuss this? Do I just decide there is no point? Is it worth it? 
I have been more up front with the first two, and it least it was good to know that once again, I’m in some strange category of cool but not worth dating. (to these men, not in general, don’t worry friends, I do think I am pretty quality).

Your thoughts. please.

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You’re my reflection

Well Jessica Biel, how does it feel for someone….not just SOMEONE, but JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE to write a 7 minute song about you being just that.

My heart is full for you actually.

I might have teared up a wee bit listening to the end of the song.

Please make the universe happy and stay together, surpassing the hollywood odds.

okay. moving on.

The 20/20 experience is really quite good. I’m pleased. I might be a tad giddy.

in that vein, I was driving home thinking of the random deadlines I have to meet, and started thinking about life. and dating. and love. and marriage. and spring.

I think every season’s change does that to me. I just watch people a bit more, get a tad wistful, and try to imagine a life in which I am that important to someone. Usually it is relatively fleeting and I don’t get too bummed about not being that.

I do have a scenario that I’ll throw out here since I can…..especially since the person to whom it refers most likely will never happen upon this blog. and if he does, and is sharp enough to know it is about him, then he can tell me so!

actually, i’ll leave it to reader interaction. if someone wants to know, leave a message. if not, i’ll leave it be.

in the mean time, I’m off to bake a red wine chocolate cake. and maybe, just maybe, work on article review that is due on friday.

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I know in whom I have believed

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That is a happy pictured taken by my buddy Lisa when she was visiting Philly and we went for Ramen. 

The smile says it all.

So yeah, the title of the post.

There are times in life when you just KNOW what you believe. Regardless of the naysayers, or of how life might not be doing all you expect/desire for it to do.

And when life is doing most of what you want, and you are content (for the most part).

As I stare my 30th birthday down (2 months from today), I am feeling a few things. 

1. 30 is a big deal. We all know how it felt to be all of a decade old (!!!), how it felt to turn 12 and be an “adolescent”, or 16 and be able to drive. 18 and leave home. 20 and feel weird, 21 and be able to drink and get into those pesky bars and concerts. 25, and feel sort of like an adult.  …….I remember 15 years ago writing down what I thought would happen by 30. I’m sure by 40, I’ll wonder what I was thinking too. 

2. I think with age (hopefully) there is more ease with being oneself. I like me. a bit more each year. the me that I believe is getting better with age. a bit more disciplined. a bit more compassionate. a bit less legalistic, but principled. maybe even better looking…okay, yes, definitely better looking! 

3. God has a lot of grace. and I am the recipient. I think the largeness of that is more evident to me daily. and I only hope that my life reflects that more each day. to others and to myself. Why would I compromise my integrity and character now to try to get something, I don’t even know if I really want…and surely don’t need. 

4. I have dodged some bullets. boy. hindsight will show you that what you thought you wanted, you really did not want. sometimes it is a painful lesson. but it is good in the end. 

5. This doctor thing is surreal. I think I am now done with the Match. no more friends are going through. officially my ties to medical training hazing rituals is OVAH. 

6. I still don’t have it figured all out. And that is okay.

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